Firefly - Fanvideo
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littlecatkFirefly - Zoe Washburne - It is always heavier than you thought
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Zoe Washburne after - (she is torn up plently but she will still fly true) the war always in the back of her mind like a numbing noise.
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Notes:
DISCLAIMER: This is a fan video. I do not own the rights to any of the clips or music. For nonprofit entertainment purposes only.
Fandom: Firefly
Music: Lana Del Rey - Gods and Monsters
Zoe Washburne after - (she is torn up plently but she will still fly true) the war always in the back of her mind like a numbing noise.
tumblr / archive
Notes:
i think this opening is really great: the attack on the valley is a great visual - the ships appearing & falling down bombs - fading in and out to the falling snowflakes.
I like all the fog/light etc messing up the vision like i am the guy who made the new Star Trek movie - because it is intentional, everything is foggy, the lines are not clear: Zoe steps into Serenity (what a wonderful heavy loaded name!) sceptic "garden of evil" while Mal shines like everything has to be alright from now on.
-their position as the the losing side, the "wrong" on in the history books of the alliance (the ones that River read in school ->the nice opening of the movie Serenity) - i always loved "Robin Hood"/petty criminal/underdog stories.
-their position as the the losing side, the "wrong" on in the history books of the alliance (the ones that River read in school ->the nice opening of the movie Serenity) - i always loved "Robin Hood"/petty criminal/underdog stories.
I love how tall and straight Zoe holds herself.
"I was an angel" set to Zoe shooting a man sets up a nice self-depreciating tone that feels accurate for Zoe's personality. Either it's using the darker, bloodier definition of "angel" or it's tongue-in-cheek, either which fits. -garrideb
"I was an angel" set to Zoe shooting a man sets up a nice self-depreciating tone that feels accurate for Zoe's personality. Either it's using the darker, bloodier definition of "angel" or it's tongue-in-cheek, either which fits. -garrideb
There is a lot of Mal in this video - i hope that is okay - Zoe has put a lot of her decisions in his hands, her life, its a coping mechanism, it makes a lot of things easier, but while i am super interested in that aspect of their dynamic it is just an aspect not all of it, so I also love how Mal looks to her, for support and input, I am pretty sure there are people who watched the show and were (only/mostly) focused on Mal (because statistical it would be unlikly of it not happening, and also he is the Protagonist, white male able bodied - potrayed by a cis man)
"Shining like a fiery beacon" its their buisness, its their shared history, pain and in a way home too (bring me home) - he looks at her and in my vid it almost looks like he is asking her to weight in, make the decision final/out loud.
"Shining like a fiery beacon" its their buisness, its their shared history, pain and in a way home too (bring me home) - he looks at her and in my vid it almost looks like he is asking her to weight in, make the decision final/out loud.
Screwed up, scared, doing anything that I needed"the boy lies to them because he is desperated but Zoe and Mal ran too, dealing with the war by largely not dealing with it at all, the way the (so beautiful shining yellow) scene inside Serenity the first time is cut between it, its running away, but its also living on - moving on, trying - Zoe smiles and follows Mal - "Shinning like a fiery beacon" and the action begins again: because that journey - with all the unexpected trouble - turns out to be i think important for their healing process they bring him/(themself) home. "You got that medicine I need" Zoe and Mal (and Jayne, and Wash, Book, River,Simone,Kylee,Inara) are great damn heroes, but doing this, doing the "right" thing, the thing they feel is right even if they also feel/know how dangerous/stupid they are saves them too.
Headed towards a fucked up holiday"Zoe eats her apples like this because of traumatic war time expierinces, i played with the idea to make this transition/cut more drastic but then did a simple fading in again, a) because this is just technial easier for me b) this was more in line with the rest of the video even if it would have been interesting/nice to have one of the quick/loud flashes of flashback into show that different effects depending on factors (trigger/time/general state etc) - one of the main aspects of this video is how the war is like always in the back of her mind, a background noise, lenses that colour everything she expierinces, its not the loud/flashy/violent-nervous style that i have seen (and loved!) in a few of Bucky Barnes (Captain America - Marvel) fanvideos - but more numbness, dissociation.
The apples they eat are safe, but when they celebrate Simones birthday there is an explosion. The transition from the explosion- pushing Kaylee out of harms way to the basketball game worked well (mimicing the scene before where Mal push her out of the way of an explosion) - "Life imitates art" sometimes the horrors feel more real then the "savety"/the now.
no one is going to take my soul away" the confront Mal scene is from the first ep. she disaggrees with his choice of buisness partner because he tried to shot Mal (which Mal tries to shrug off). I feel like I should have prepared something to say about the constallation of Mal/Zoe/Wash - because i am sure there were parts of the fandom that got ugly with shipping - but - i have nothing. the way Wash symbolis/embodies "inocents" for Zoe a bit. two scenes in the medibay, Wash losing his cool when she is hurt and and the "redemptation" of the Wash/Mal/Zoe conflict with both of them smiling at Mal who wakes up in the medibay.
I like that you didn't go with the obvious choice of clip for "looking to get fucked hard" because Mal flirting with Zoe brings the other definition of "fucked" to mind, that Zoe really could be signing her own death warrant by staying with Mal. -garrideb
I like that you didn't go with the obvious choice of clip for "looking to get fucked hard" because Mal flirting with Zoe brings the other definition of "fucked" to mind, that Zoe really could be signing her own death warrant by staying with Mal. -garrideb
Dope, shoot it up, straight to the heart please"the dinner scene where Jayne reach over to get another piece - most of the times one/I try not to use a scene more then once, but here I did, on purpose, this dinner scene actually is not a repeat, but it evokes the scene with Simones birthday, the scene after that is a direct repeat its that explosion, so are the war flashbacks - repetation - one reason is of cause limited skill/resources but also it is the same scene, this is not a new treat but her mind being chaught in the old one (i know all this is just in my head but knowing that does not nessary make it dissapear)
"No one's gonna take my soul away" I really like the fade in/blue sparks/fog obscouration - its clichee but it is effectiv for me.
the dichotomy between Zoe the destroyer and Zoe the builder-[Bad username or unknown identity: ](the sparks of the repair are after Wash funeral. to ensure Serenity will still fly. fixing things as a better/healtier coping method then violence,codependency etc. that are also in this video.
the dichotomy between Zoe the destroyer and Zoe the builder-[Bad username or unknown identity: ](the sparks of the repair are after Wash funeral. to ensure Serenity will still fly. fixing things as a better/healtier coping method then violence,codependency etc. that are also in this video.
I love the rows of funerals "Fuck yeah give it to me this is heaven, what I truly Want"
The fading into black - and her standing still like that before snapping into action - I like the effect here because it emphasize the dissociation.
"When you talk it's like a movie and you're making me Crazy" When we are backed up against a wall we often use old coping methods that are not always approative. The transition between her screaming to action to the kid running to Kylee -movment workin as a connection - cut between by the explosion not sure if that works but it was something i though could be interesting.
"If I get a little prettier can I be your baby?" The contrast of them walking in with Book (Kylee with the kid) vs the white/blue Planet with the failed project - how she is the one who is walking/acting with such control/skill.
Having the child run into Kaylee's arms to "could I be your baby" makes me think that Zoe worries that she's too messed up to relate to non-veterans like Kaylee, but wants to be friends with someone so sweet and optimistic anyway. I like that. I also like having River during the another iteration of "innocence lost"-garrideb
"I'm living like Jim Morrison" ft Mals face seeing the destruction of Brooks place/the one of the Serenity Valley. The show does not show us Zoes face to it, and their feelings are not interchangable but it is a frame of reference "Like Jim Morrision" this is a bit of snap at the canon and a snap at the work of transformative fanwork, dealing with emotions by letting (other) fictional characters deal with emotions. I don´t know if thats just me through and if it just throws everyone out of the loop - if yes i am sorry.
We are coming back to the dinner table. Inara scolds/teases Mal about "playing with his guns" there (and there is a certain macho-playing there) - Zoe and Wash strapping guns on is death serious through they have to rescue Mal - keeping your guns in good shape is important for surrival - and it has also some sort of soothing effect to know you are prepared if something happens - and then there is Jayne (who defintily has some weird macho-playing) but while he is at it people come to the table to eat - like it is natural.
Zoe follows Mal into Serenity.
(The last scene. The war again is after the song ends. It is still there. But live goes on)
“Kill what you can't save
what you can't eat throw out
what you can't throw out bury
What you can't bury give away
what you can't give away you must carry with you,
it is always heavier than you thought.”
-Margaret Atwood, You are Happy
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Date: 2017-09-19 02:04 pm (UTC)Great song choice!
thanks
Date: 2017-09-19 02:27 pm (UTC)i also love your icon!! i have to get some (fandom) icons myself.
was there any part you liked the most/you are curious about? etc.
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Date: 2017-09-22 06:50 pm (UTC)hi
Date: 2017-09-22 09:58 pm (UTC)i was debatting if i send you a message to tell you I Finally (it took so long, but it was mostly done in big pieces, i just had to finish up and fix transitions - which was unnessary hard) did it, but i did not want to be annoyung...
anyway i am glad you watched it (and liked it!!)
and i am looking forward to read your longer comment!
Re: hi
Date: 2017-09-23 07:48 pm (UTC)I feel like the vid starts so strong, with the soft fades between the space battle and the funeral. So evocative of the world Zoe's been living in, and it matches the dreamy music of the song. And putting big explosions/white flashes on the first drum beats of the song is perfect.
I love how Zoe's purposeful stride always seems to match the beat.
"I was an angel" set to Zoe shooting a man sets up a nice self-depreciating tone that feels accurate for Zoe's personality. Either it's using the darker, bloodier definition of "angel" or it's tongue-in-cheek, either which fits.
Opening the door to Serenity to "Garden of evil" is... oddly sweet? They're violent outlaws who've carved out a home on Serenity. They're obstinately the heroes but I can see them lovingly thinking of Serenity as a garden of evil, especially since the Alliance claims to be the good guys.
All those shots of Zoe standing next to Mal, stalwart, really highlight Zoe's loyalty.
Both "fucked up holiday" matches... Simon's birthday and Wash's funeral are great choices. The funeral especially is a gut punch.
"Innocence lost" with Zoe helping Wash out of captivity makes me think that Zoe probably does see Wash as having an innocence that she wants to protect, but ultimately can't.
I like that you didn't go with the obvious choice of clip for "looking to get fucked hard" because Mal flirting with Zoe brings the other definition of "fucked" to mind, that Zoe really could be signing her own death warrant by staying with Mal.
The cut at 2:11 from Zoe shooting the monitor to Zoe welding something, using the sparks as the transition was a really, really cool effect. Also love the dichotomy between Zoe the destroyer and Zoe the builder.
Also, the timing at 3:08 with a drumbeat right as Zoe steps down wit her gun drawn, protect her crew, is wonderful.
Having the child run into Kaylee's arms to "could I be your baby" makes me think that Zoe worries that she's too messed up to relate to non-veterans like Kaylee, but wants to be friends with someone so sweet and optimistic anyway. I like that. I also like having River during the another iteration of "innocence lost"
The ONLY thing that didn't work for me was the footage that played after the song had ended. The scene of Zoe and Mal walking away seemed like such a natural fade-out point that the additional footage felt out of place to me. But I read your reason for including it, and that does make sense. The symbolism is nice. It might have worked better for me if it hadn't ended abruptly with Zoe mid-movement.
Again, I'm so happy to see that you finished this vid! I love Zoe so much and this is such a good tribute to her. She could be so stoic in the show but this vid feels like it's peeking into her mind and showing all her inner turmoil and all the strength she uses to keep on living with the war never-ending in her mind. Just really, really beautiful.
Gosh, I'd forgotten that I had a Zoe & Wash icon! This is the perfect time to use it!
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Date: 2017-09-24 05:05 pm (UTC)i am really a boit proud of some of the fading/flashes in this so i am glad that i did their work.
Lana del rey songs have this ... teenage rebellion + tired sadness, there is this world full of self medication, gambling, abusive relationships (often romantic, some family) - and the dream of making it big that is not rooted in a fair chance in society but luckying out (gamble, stardom etc) - while also being like "yeah i like it like that" to everyone specialy oneself - i think that makes them interesting even if its not a way i want to live/romanticise.
(its a dying heartland, working class, lifestyle in a differnt way then the Kinks (i vid them in "Red Things" were i twist song intention too) or Springsteen etc.)
The "innocent" connection with Wash was something i liked in canon, the vid follows up with "in the land of gods and monsters/i was an angel" with two scenes in the medibay, Wash losing his cool when she is hurt and and the "redemptation" of the Wash/Mal/Zoe conflict with both of them smiling at Mal who wakes up in the medibay.
yeah the "fucked" hard is definitly not meant in a sexual way, but as the next follow up, she sticks with him, she is glad that she has him, that she can share their trauma together as she is glad that Wash can not.
i once saw a beautiful graphic with her "a hero is someone who gets other people killed" quote using wash death and her scene when she tells mal ,held together but harsh, "she is torn up plently but she will fly."
lana del rey songs are occasionly self aware about the undesirable-ness of their situation but still being unable to quit: unhealthy, coping mechanism and love.
i liked what you said about the "garden of evil" line, i always liked stories about petty criminals/robin hood/underdog things.
"gds death" with the gun shot at the security camera, has for me this bit of "and i shot him"- (i really want to see some fanworks that deal with her religiousity/faith- but beside that) "gd" is also a bit of a stand in for any of this authority here.
super yes to the "could i be your baby" thing, i have not yet found any fanworks about Zoe and the other female characters (there are a few Inara/Kylee thing and that great but i want more)
yes Zoes outside look is very stotic which is funny because she reads to me as a person who base a lot of her actions in emotions, not logic or law as said. and the inside of the mind look was what i was going for.
again thanks for the comment, and sorry if i am not making much sense/repeating myself i am not feeling great heal/mind-stuff.
(also love your icon i have to look for icons too. i just do not know where to start at all)