littlecatk

You may have noticed most of my vids so far are for fandoms where i have not seen many/any ones beside mine, the ones in bigger fandoms (or even just still active sources which would my Hawaii 5 0 and my Final Fantasy 15 vid) focus on things that i have not seen discused in fandom - and I tots agree i made this because no one else did, because i needed an outlet for this emotions I have for them and no one did provide it, part of me also made them hopeing a tiny bit someone would see them and response with their emotions about the subjects maybe even work on their own fanwork for it.
So why does this vid makes me problems? I do not think I am extraordinary clever or creative but I like to think my vids have something to offer even if you were not previous hyper invested in my theme or maybe even if one is unfamilar with the source at all - but this one is a clichee cheesy shipping vid - it is edited to a mainstream pop song - as said it gives me the feels but i know 2 other people who shipped this and the fanwork they produced for them (7 fics under 3000 words and a long fic that is now no longer aviable online but they send me a document cop) was way better in quality then mine. It is a self-indulgent twaddle and even if i just accept i never will post it anywhere the existense gives me a heart/headache because i wanted this ship to have good (self-indulgent) things - it is just one of the fandom things i am unessary emotional about.
On a more logical side the video has this feel of building up to something but does not come to a payoff that feels deserved because the end of them in canon is incredible sad (and source typical bloody) and i wanted to make myself something happy so thats not in there.

anyway thanks for asking!
and if it is interesting to you the fandom is Sons of Anarchy and the pair is Clay Morrow/Tig Trager.